My Soul Thirsts

A neglected soul longs for refreshment as a deer pants for flowing streams.

Ps 19:14 – Let the sayings of my mouth, And the meditation of my heart, Be for a pleasing thing before Thee, O Jehovah, my rock, and my redeemer! (YLT)

The sayings of my mouth.

Expressions that expose what I perceive to be truth and wisdom.

The meditation of my heart.

To earnestly, deeply think and to murmur with tenderness, evoking a strong emotional response.

The sayings of my mouth.

Do you ever stop to listen, deeply listen, to comprehend and verify the sayings of your mouth? For much of my life, I didn’t, and suffered the consequences. Then blamed God for failing me!

The sayings of our mouth are expressions that expose what we perceive to be truth and wisdom.

Consider words spoken or thought about yourself; words spoken or thought about others; words spoken or thought about God; about life and death, success and failure, what has value and what is useless.

Do your words and thoughts give pleasure? Do your words and thoughts satisfy? Are your words and thoughts agreeable? Do they delight? Do they approve? Do they pardon? Do they bring into harmony?

The meditation of my heart.

To murmur. To murmur with tenderness, evoking a strong emotional response. Does this describe your typical words and thoughts and the way that they flow from you?

Meditation: To murmur (in pleasure or anger). To ponder. A murmuring sound, i.e. a musical notation (probably similar to the modern affetuoso to indicate solemnity of movement. Tender and affecting; evoking a strong emotional response.1

The meditation of my heart.

Pause and probe deeper. If your words and thoughts, directed toward yourself, others, the natural world and/or God, sometimes or generally do not flow with tenderness, search and explore the deepest part of your heart/mind/soul for wounds from which the hurtful, unsatisfying, divisive words and thoughts ooze or spew. Consider the following questions:

Do I doubt that God is good, right in all his ways, kind in all his works, that he loves me and my broken world?

Do I doubt the grace (favor) of the Lord Jesus Christ toward me and my corrupt world?

Do I doubt the participation of Holy Spirit with me and with my hurting world?

Am I aware of an unsatisfied longing deep within myself and deep within all around me, within all of creation?

Perhaps we, all of creation together, are experiencing what the psalmist(s) experienced and defined for us:

Ps 42:1-2 – As a deer pants for flowing streams, so pants my soul for you, O God. My soul thirsts for God, for the living God. When shall I come and appear before God? (ESV)

My soul. Pants for. Flowing streams. Thirsts for. Living God.

Interact with the words of Scripture through deep, careful study.

Then move beyond logic and reason; move from head to heart. Extend your arms out to the side, and as far back as you can, a symbol of opening your heart wide, exposing its depths, then bring your hands back to rest in your lap.

Meditate. Experience the word of Scripture bodily by moaning, growling, uttering, speaking aloud each word, syllable by syllable. Experience the psalmist(s)’s words becoming your words and prayer, expressing the longing and desire and hope in the depth of your own soul. Become acquainted with your longing. Anticipate that your soul’s longing will be satisfied, its hunger will be filled with good things, and it will be healed and made complete again. Let the inspired word of God arouse feelings of awe.

2 Cor 13:14 – the grace of the Lord Jesus Christ, and the love of God, and the fellowship of the Holy Spirit, [is] with you all! Amen. (YLT)

My
My soul
My soul pants
My soul pants for
My soul pants for flowing streams
My soul pants for flowing streams

My
My soul
My soul thirsts
My soul thirsts for
My soul thirsts for living
My soul thirsts for the living God

The grace
The grace of the Lord Jesus Christ
IS

The love
The love of God
IS

The fellowship
The fellowship of the Holy Spirit
IS

Is with me
IS

Is with you all

Amen!

May it be so!

Contemplate. Sit quietly without thinking, without murmuring. Simply be. Become conscious of your companions.

Stay in this place of rest and fellowship for as long as you can.

When finished, select just one word or phrase and carry it with you all day, thinking about it, murmuring it, holding it, treasuring it. Let it soak deep into your soul. Tomorrow, meditate on the entire text again. Select the same word or phrase or a different one to carry with you all day, thinking about it, murmuring it, holding it, treasuring it. Do this practice every day. Let God’s Word begin to fill your soul with good things.

I ponder every morsel of wisdom from you, I attentively watch how you’ve done it. I relish everything you’ve told me of life, I won’t forget a word of it. (Ps 119:15-16 MSG)

 

But it is the spirit in man, the breath of the Almighty, that makes him understand. (Job 32:8)

I encourage you to look for ways and practices to help you become aware of Holy Spirit and to relinquish all that you have and all that you are to Holy Spirit’s convicting, enlightening, restorative ministrations.

A practice that has been life-changing for me comes from Psalm 46:10.

Ps 46:10 – “Be still, and know that I am God. I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth!” (ESV)

Be still.
It’s a paradox.
Be still. A state of being. Am. Is. Stay, remain as in was, were.
It’s a process of letting go in order to rediscover Life that was forfeited.
It’s a process of ceasing, stopping, to be destroyed, and dying in order to be redeemed.
It’s a process of abandoning and neglecting in order to be healed and made whole.

It’s a process of opposing, contending, and striving in order to give up, renounce, leave, and abandon self-interest that is death, forfeiture of Life.

It’s a process of becoming weak, feeble, to be wept over in order to return to the original Life that was forfeited, but is bought back by the only One who has Life in himself.

Be still, consequently
Know

Know, not in the sense of accumulating facts and figures, receiving answers about what to do to get a good life, but know as in relationship. Know as in Being. Awareness, consciousness, discernment, recognition, acquaintance, familiar friend, feel, perceive, have respect, have understanding, instruction, presence, fellowship.

Be still.

Letting the vessel of wrath prepared for destruction go in order to know the riches of God’s glory for vessels of mercy.

2 Peter 3:18 – But grow in the grace and knowledge of our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. To him be the glory both now and to the day of eternity. Amen. (ESV)

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1Meditation: OT:1902 /oyG*h! higgayown (hig-gaw-yone’); intensive [giving force or emphasis] from OT:1897; a murmuring sound, i.e. a musical notation (probably similar to the modern affettuoso to indicate solemnity of movement); by implication, a machination:

OT:1897 hg*h* hagah (daw-gaw’); a primitive root [compare OT:1901]; to murmur (in pleasure or anger); by implication, to ponder: KJV – imagine, meditate, mourn, mutter, roar,  sore, speak, study, talk, utter. (Biblesoft’s New Exhaustive Strong’s Numbers and Concordance with Expanded Greek-Hebrew Dictionary. Copyright © 1994, 2003, 2006, 2010 Biblesoft, Inc. and International Bible Translators, Inc.)

Affettuoso: Tender and affecting; evoking a strong emotional response. (from Miriam Webster’s Dictionary)

 

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  1. Truly Mystical …

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